Today was day 3 of class, really day 2 of learning. I'm so tired from all the thinking and walking, but it feels good to be doing something again. It's funny though, I go through these cycles all day in class. It feels like this;
Oh yeah, ok, I get that. That's good.I feel so ADD ridden it's crazy! After class today I met O for dinner. She is the Canadian girl that was too advanced for the class. I was super frustrated with the second half of class and felt like bursting into tears. The 15 minute walk to meet her felt good, it gave me a chance to burn off some frustration. Then it started raining. Of course I didn't have my umbrella with me, did you really even have to ask? I was meeting O in the middle of the square so I stood with my wet-rat self under an awing until I saw her.
I know that. I'm understanding French.
I rock.
Ohh - look a bee outside!
What? What did she say?
I don't know that word, why are people laughing?
I should laugh. I'm laughing.
I think I want to cry..
Oh, I got that, ok, I understand...
Please don't call on me.
I am understanding her.
Ohh - look a bird!
Once we started talking she could see how upset I was. We went and had a drink and she helped me with just some basics. She even drilled me and had me conjugate verbs. By the time we were done with dinner I felt like I could go back to class tomorrow and not feel completely stupid.
So right now I'm on an upclimb on my French Language Roller Coaster, I hope the drop isn't too bad tomorrow.
4 comments:
Don't worry, you'll get there eventually! Everything will just fall into place, maybe not tomorrow but eventually and like Sam mentioned elsewhere, it's really good you're in a more advanced class, otherwise it's so boring slogging it out with the slowcoaches (plus the teachers don't like that either).
Okay, stop beating yourself up! That is completely normal. When I first arrived I would sit through meeting with my co-workers and fight to follow, but as the conversation goes on my mind would wander due to fatigue and bang! I was lost. It is just that easy, and is impossible to think you will be able to focus 100% all the time. It is very tiring learning a language, especially if you are in a more advanced setting. But trust me, you will learn the language faster because you are challenged so much... It is a good thing! So take time for yourself after each lesson and relax. I think it was a good thing you were able to meet up with the Canadian and speak some English while she clarified and quizzed you afterwards. That is such a perfect way to rest and reflect. But don't beat yourself up! You will get there, and each time the pain will be less and less.
T'inquiète pas ! C'est normal ! Seriously, your mind is going to wander because it's impossible to understand every little thing the teacher says. You don't have ADD, don't worry! :)
Le Tigre, Justin and Jenny....
Thank you for your words of support!! It's so good to feel like i have a team of people out there that know what I'm going through and have good things to say. I know I'm going to learn this language, it's just not going to happen in one week.
Probably not even in three...darn it...
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